A Little Chris Goes a Long way...

I am back

2010-03-21T20:46:00.002+08:00

Hey blog buddies..

I am back.. Maybe you all have already forgotten me..

But as long as you are reading

My heart of writing blog is alive again..

I was revived of the boredom of life

My mind was blank, hanging around and doing nothing .

As friends advised me to update my blog,

So do I

Those day that i left this blog,

I really busy..

Ok well,,, this article is just simply about my return.

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War

2009-10-24T21:04:00.003+08:00

A foolish war
Not between countries, societies and racial.

BUT Friendship.
It began so unrealizable.
Maybe just a small things, crap or what.

It caused the war,
Between me and her.

If I reveal the cause of the war,
my post will sure become a joke
and I will become a JOKER.

But
I'd said.
I will share my experiences to you all.
Blog Buddies.

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The sun was smothering,
wind was twisting smoothly and gently in air.

It was a fine day
and that day was a school day, Friday.

As usual,
I will plan to have my lunch with friends in "Belgium".

So did we.

But before we went there,
We've meet our intimidate friends.

One of them if HER lover.
But I dunno the one is really treat HER as his lover too or not.

WE chatted happily,
no excuses, no care of speech.

He seemed to be busy chit-chatting and forgot about her.
But he still greeted to her.

She was like just too sensitive about.
Wind twisted vigorously,
Sun was dimmed,
Like going to happen a THUNDERSTORM!!

Since,
HER happy face changed rapidly to a sad, and sorrow face.
Mouth was hanging a crooked mouth.

She turned into a deaf.
Can't hear and can't talk.
Her heart like thousands of needles poked on.

Of course,
our mood will sure being corrupted.

The war began.

I dislike her sensitivity.
Act like nobody.
SO, I had scolded her, but I bent my words.

Please
Her sensitivity is just too impressive.

I wonder how long the war will last.

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Just a foolish war

Guinea pigs

2009-10-19T18:24:00.005+08:00

I love Guinea Pigs
They are so adorable and cute.

Why am I suddenly fall in love on guinea pigs...
After I have watched the 2009 movie, G-force
I realize they are so cute !!!

I hope I can own one.
But I think Cant
2 years ago ,
I owned a Hamster.

It's dead in the cage.
I felt so sorry to it.
It is in the heaven now..
Living happily than my house.

Now I love guinea pigs
I wish to rear them
I will put my effort as much as I can to take care it---The guinea pigs.

Blog Buddies,
Here's a sample picture of Guinea pig.
It's really cute.

Isn't it cute?

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Dreams

2009-10-19T13:16:00.006+08:00

What's Dream?

It is real or virtual?

I usually dream on whatever aspect.

Love---Friends---Ambitions---Money---Appearance.

School final exams is ended.

I looked like no more aim, target.

Hence ,I dream sometimes.

It may not come true.

But it can pacify my feelings.

Sometimes I dream I have become a famous and handsome man.

My dream appearance:

Sharp chin
Some facial hair
Blue eyes
Thick eye brows

Something like this (except the green eyes)

Sometimes I also dream that I am a great and fabulous pianist

Playing the Grand one on the dream stage.

Performing graceful melodies, entertaining the audience.

I wish I can also sing nice romantic song when playing piano.

Sometimes I also dream that I can go to Paris with my lover.

For me , I think it is the most romantic place.

I hope I can stand on top of the Eiffel Tower,

Watch down the greeny earth.

Man kind is just small enough.

Sometimes I also dream I play and shopping happily with friends

Eat delicious Food, enjoy great movies and bla bla bla

It was so fun .

Sometimes I dream I live happily and harmony with my beloved partner.

No worry , no sorrow.

Nice isn't it?

Sometimes I wish i am a millionaire.

Money, money ,money.

I wanna be rich!!

Kinda silly .

I also dream if the world is peace and harmony.

No more wars, no argue, no fights.

I wish all who read my posts

Always good in health,

Always be happy,

AND

Will continue come to my blog ^^

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Apologize

2009-10-19T13:07:00.002+08:00

Recently , My mind is BLANK.

No ideas,

No thoughts,

No consideration.

I can't write a nice post according my mood, minds and feelings.

Even now I am still wondering what should I write .

My blog had subsided for about a week.

No changes,

No improvement,

Outdated.

It is already stale and rotten in the week.

God!!!

Please give me some ideas for blogging!!

Blog buddies..

Sorry for not updating the blog.

But i will try as much as I can.

Post out perfect article, experiences and all that.

Sorry blog buddies.

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Fed Up

2009-10-10T15:28:00.003+08:00

Waiting waiting and waiting
Nothing to do but chat

No good friends,
No topic,
No planning.

Like a person locked in a room
Blank-minded.

Wishing,wishing and wishing
Finally a good friend appear. By web
Onlining..

White paper is started to be colored.
Room is unlocked
Mind with some ideas.

Greeting with a HI.
Curious about him.
Then
ask some questions .
Answered politely.

Chatting happily with friends.
One of the friends is my intimidate ones.

Who knows
Maybe he's in bad mood
Feels vexed.

Rude replyment.
Enduring not to explode.

Somehow it's still irritating .
High pressure.
High temp.

No longer enduring.
Bom !! Explode!! Erupt!!

Writing with sorrow, anger, and worry.
Three feelings spin in my mind.
The mixture helps me to gain ideas

To write this post ..

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The End part V

2009-10-07T18:09:00.007+08:00

Producing zzzzz

The next morning ,today
It was the most important process of the funeral.

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After the processes,
the coffin was then took in a car.
We followed at the back of the car at walk slowly.

We walked from the house to the main road.
It was quite far.

Luckily the day was a cloudy day.

After that, we were sent to Penang by a bus.
The bus was a part if the package of the funeral.
He was burned as we selected to burn him.( this is a traditional method of handling the deceased)

Again
some ceremonies.
I saw the coffin was pushed into the burning room.
I wondered how pain when I was being burned.

Later on, we took our lunch.
WE ate big roast pig and porridge.
Then , I was asked to change the white clothes to red clothes.
It also some kinds of belief of the ceremony.

Then we headed back to my aunt's home.
Clearing the surrounding and packing our belongings and preparing to go home.
My aunt, used to lived with him together.
Now, she is alone.
I really worry about her.

After chatting a while, we went home.

He had left us, to somewhere far , somewhere no pain, no sorrow, no war.
I realised
He had really gone, no more , no more.

MY advice :
Blog buddies! Treasure what you have now !!!

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The End part IV

2009-10-07T17:42:00.003+08:00

I was fell asleep.

Morning ,
Doing same daily activity.
Brush teeth , bath , eat breakfast ...

Reached school.
Exam started and ended.

The students shouted freely like imprisoned.
It was only 10 o'clock.
The principal not allowed us to get home .

But useless .
Many parents had already reached and complained about it.
So, we were allowed to go home at last.

My another aunt, father's sister, from Singapore,
Flew from Singapore to attend the funeral.

My dad brought me to my aunt's home.
I saw the funeral.
Black and white， colorless

I fold some gold and silver paper for the deceased.
It's traditional.
I also burned some.

Actually it was quite boring.
Nothing to do except those.

Some relatives and friends came to visit and console us.
Kindly thanks them at here.

My aunt(from Singapore) had reached.
She donated some money to us.
RM3000. The largest amount of donation among the people.

We chatted there to spend our time.

Lunch time.
I was forced to be a vegetarian.

Skip skip skip

At night,
the funeral procession started
We prayed and chanting there
Hands were holding a stick

We were asked to walk surrounding the coffin.
I was nervous when doing that.
But it is a process of the funeral.

Same process did at the time intervals of 1 hour
More and more guest came.
It was crowded.

There were a lot people donating money.
Thanks them a lot.

Chit-chatting

The guest left and taking a packet of sweets.

I was too tired.
I went up and take a nap.
Who knows,
I slept till 2 o clock in the morning

But my family havent sleep yet
I went down the funeral to help something.

It was tiring enough.
I slept in the car as there was no place to let me sleep .
at about 5 am

I went back upstairs and slept on the bed.
It is quite queezy but at least better than in the car.

Producing zzzzz

-To be Continue-

The End part III

2009-10-07T17:09:00.004+08:00

Snoring unsteadily

Suddenly,
There was a call.
My grandma rushed out of the room and answered it.

Nothing serious happened
Just my dad informed my grandma that he wouldnt go overseas .

Just then,
I continued to sleep.
Same thing
snoring unsteadily
worrying about him
hoping for him

Light was lit brightly
It's time to wake up to school and exam.
Luckily there wasn't any bad news

Skip skip skip

Exam finished
It was physics, history and Malay language.
Walking toward the gate of the school.
aiming to went home study.

Grandma reached
She said that he is going to heaven, just left some times.

I was shocked and no expression.
Maybe i was too shocked to hear that.
We rushed to the hospital.

When reached the hospital,
we wanted to get to the wad.
But the guard not allowed us to pass as the time for visiting is over.
We kept persuading until our saliva dried up.
Finally he gave us 5 minutes to visit him.

When on the way the the wad,
i met his friend
His friend said that he and her daughters were sent back to home.

Undoubtfully,
we quickly went to my aunt's house.
It was just a stone's throw away.

The ambulance reached.
He was still unconscious lying on the bed.
He was carried by some men to the upstairs.

He was then placed in the living room.
Suffering and going to die.

The men took off the survival items.
He was gasping for air but hadnt dead.

We kept talking and whispering to him.
Trying our best to full-fill his desires.

The daughters helped to change and wiped his body.
He was then dressed his most favourite shirt and long pants.

Still unconscious.
My sister, grandma and I were then back to our own home.
As we were already called him and saw his face.

An hour later,
He was announced that he was dead.
That time ,
I dunno even my grandma and sister.
I was sleeping at the moment as it was too tiring.

When i woke up,
I was informed.
He was dead , and had left us.

After dinner,
I went to my aunt's house again.
The funeral procession was on the way of preparing.

He was located in his house, coffin.
I was not dare to see him in the coffin at the first time.

But

I went to see at last.
He had changed.
His face, narrow and thin.
Pale and white.

The people there had numb look.
Sad and sorrow.

I studied at there as the next day will be English exam.
I studied a poem titled "There have been a death at the opposite house"
The poet described it as same as mine.

Time flies..
2 hours passed
My grandma came to fetch me back home.

When back to home,
I lay on the bed.
I was fell asleep.

-To be Continue-

The End part II

2009-10-07T16:19:00.005+08:00

She is just too filial piety.

This condition remained constant for about 3 weeks

Out of a sudden,
His legs was totally no energy.
Disabled
Lying on the bed with a crooked mouth. Sad
He wished to walk around
But no people had the energy to carry him.

My aunt
Fed him, helped to bath, changed his clothes and other daily activities.

A week passed
He was advised to hospitalize.
So did him

He stayed at the Seberang Jaya General Hospital.
Every weekend ,we whole family go visit him.
But my aunt
without leaving him-daily.

My aunt seemed to be exhausted
so my mom and my second aunt decided to help so.
Alternating to care him

This repeats , repeats and repeats.
Finally that day,
It's my aunt's turn.
That night my aunt cared him well.

Out of the blue,
his hands shook strongly, uncontrollable。
My aunt quickly informed the doctor.
The doctor rushed to the wad.
But he explained that he is just cold.
It was not caused by the cold.

A few minutes passed
His hand shook non- stop
Doctor came again.
This time,
She realised that why his urinary bag didnt contain any of urine.
Started to doubt.

Doctor suggest some surgery method.
My aunt cant make a well decision.
So
She called my mom
My mom didnt answer the phone.
Several times.
Unable to connect the line.
So she called me.

I answered politely
Asking what had happened.
She didnt tell me anything.
Just asked whether mom in or not and asked me to inform mom that she did call before.

She revealed some to me.
She said it is about an emergency thing about him.

I promised to help her.
When mom back
I told her.
My whole family rushed as fast as light to the hospital.

The journey,
My dad drove recklessly.
I scared we were involved in an accident.

Fortunately,
we did not.
We reached the hospital safely.
Dad dropped us at the front door of the hospital.

We rushed.
Didnt care any of our image. Worrying
WE reached the wad of him.
Seeing both my aunt's eye frames with tears.
He wad being rescued in the emergency room.

My mom's tears were condensing and accumulating in her eyes.
He was rescued and we were permitted to visit him.
He was unconscious.
But I knew he can hear us.

The daughters of him
My aunts and mom

Eyes with tears
Heart with millions of needles
Crying ...

They tried wake up him
But useless
They talked a lot to him
Saying that they will care themselves or each other .

I went in and called him
Shirtless
Equipped with survival machine.
Looked suffering.

That night wad day before exam.
So I must get home early.
Dad fetched me back.
He's actually going to Philipine the next day.
But canceled at the last minute.

After reaching home,
I prayed sincerely.
Hoping that he will recover.

Switched off the light and turned on the night light.
Snoring unsteadily

-To be Continue-

The End part I

2009-10-07T15:32:00.003+08:00

This was so unexpected to happen,
But it really did.

He was a strong and healthy man
Exercised frequently
and lived simple and unadorned.

He loved to do gardening.
We considered that he had green fingers.
A wilt and dying plant will regrow under his care and cultivation.

One month ago,
his legs suddenly lacked of energy.
Unable to walk unless with crutches

His face no longer with a smile
no longer happy
Life seemed hopeless and helpless to him.
His happiness was switched to sorrow and pity.

Fortunately,
His daughter, my aunt
cared him like a baby
She stopped her work
Stayed at home and cared him

His life started to improve better.
A slight smile hung on his face.
But we can still know that he was quite unhappy.
The smile was just to gloss over his suffers and sadness.

We always were to visit him when we were free enough.
Sent our regards to him.

My aunt brought him to see a doctor, Doctor Suan.
She said that he was just old enough and it was normal for those old man.
He was 82 years old.

My aunt cares him daily and daily,
to full-fill his desire.
Funny was
He always juggled my aunt
Commanding her to do some minor things
Take the specs, change the pillow and so on.
But my aunt was willingly to help him.

She is just too filial piety.

-To be Continue-

Distractions

2009-10-04T18:12:00.003+08:00

28/9/2009 >>> 6/10/2009

I believe all SMJK Jit Sin students know this period

It's EXAM !!!!
Damn!
It's crazy and insane as so early exam

But there's also some undiscovered benefits..
For me , I think students can relax earlier( after exam).

I saw some of my friends
Their hands were keep holding a book nowhere they were..
Even at the canteen, assembly...

Oppositely I'm not
My mind keeps telling me that I still have a lot time to prepare it
But actually it's only left about 2 weeks to exam.

Back home , after bath , meal
My eyes are so tired and almost closed
I've tried to tank it

Unfortunately
I've beaten by the king of slumber.
I lay on my bed and start producing ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

I slept 3 hours then start studying

1s
:
2s
:
3s
:
4s
:
5s

Time passed orderly
My favourite tv program started
Of course
I won't miss it

Jesus!!
I realised I dont have much time to study .
But I behaving the "timetable" of my daily life.

Weekends
I stay at my parents house
That mean I stay at my grandparents house during weekdays

Parents house are accomodated with high tech features
Computers, wide screen television, play stations and so on

Distractions, distractions !!!!!
I am addicted to them
Playing non-stop

Even now ..
When I am writing this post, I am considered as addicting to it. Blog
My test is coming tomorrow

But Luckily
I am quite well-prepared
Except the history subject
It makes me headache...
Nabi Muhammad s.a.w ...

Blog Buddies
Do not ever join Islam!!!!
I am an anti-Islam person.

Sorry about that.

Exam is approaching nearer and nearer to me
After exam
I will described myself as like the bird out of the cage.

Tomorrow exam ~
Bye blog buddies
Be right back in the following week..

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Happy Mooncake festival

2009-10-03T11:43:00.007+08:00

Blog Buddies!!!! Happy Mooncake Festivals!!!

Eyes wink~
2009’s Mooncake Festival come again..

It is not so excited and lively as pass years

But I can see some of my neighbours hanging multi-coloured lanterns around their houses.
It is quite nice and attracting sometimes..

Shopping complex is selling lot of moon cake
Many kinds of flavour

Unfortunately
I don't eat moon cake
because of the egg yolk inside it..
So i can only stare at those moon cakes..

Fortunately
My grandma went to the market and bought some jelly moon cakes for me
It is transparent and fruit filled inside it .No egg yolk
Orange, Lychee, Kiwi, Coconut, Pandan

Although it is not as traditional as the real moon cake
But the meaning of eating it is same :
"Celebrating Mooncake Festival "

The moon tonight will be a Full Moon
The brightest, round and biggest moon throughout the year
So, blog buddies
Don't miss it!!

Every mooncake festival of the year,
My brain will sure automatically recall pass years memories.

Buying dragon-shaped lantern..
walking along the dark and dull street with some of my friends
Our lantern lit the street
Singing along it
making the street back to life again
Full of noise, happiness, and excitement.

That night was very fun and enjoyable.

Six years later...(now)
the street no longer alive,
Dead in the silence,
Dark like hell,
Becomes the habitat of some darkness creatures

Not dare to walk along it
Unless I have a time machine
Revive the street just like six years ago.

But it is impossible for technology nowadays

Life nowadays is full-filled with high tech equipment
Computer, Television, Play Station, Internet

These ruin the traditions
People no longer behaving traditional habits

Longer and Longer
It extincts
Future generation maybe don't know what is mooncake festival.

Blog Buddies
When you read this post
Please try to prolong our festivals

Anyway
Happy Mooncake Festival

Enjoy !! Guys

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Just want Peace

2009-10-02T22:52:00.002+08:00

Peace?
This word seems not so familiar to me ...

Noice
Strife
Dispute

These words seem more familiar to me compare to Peace

I wan just want peace...

Everyday back home
grandfather and grandmother argue because of some minor things

Even they argue of sitting on the sofa ..
It seems ridiculous

When i see other family living happily and cooperateing
I envy

I want that type of life instead of unpeace

I stay at grandma's house
As it is nearer and easier to go school
Monday to Friday

Sunday to Friday

this is my repetitions of life

Saturday no school
So, i usually go back my parent's home

Same thing

They argue

NON-STOP

Of course
There is sometimes they don't

I doubt :
Why they always argue instead of being peace?
Aren't they know a peace life is better than that?

I curious the reason
But not dare to find out by asking them

Sometimes i feel that i m the bringer of argument, bringer of war, bringer of bad luck.
Am I?

I really want peace
For me
Peace is more important than anything

I want it just like living organisms need oxygen.

God!!!
Please give me some peace!!!
Some will be enough...enough...

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Revenge

2009-10-02T21:01:00.000+08:00

The FIRE in my heart burns vigorously.
Even 9 magnitude of earthquake tsunami and rainstorm,
also can't stamp out the FIRE in my heart.

Although this FIRE is described so exuberant'
But
Only some of my intimate friends know the presence of this FIRE.

They tried to comfort and console me before.
But
It's kinda useless to me .

Sorry Friends,
You wasted your saliva.

This FIRE cant burn to become such vigorous and exuberant in one day.
It must be started to burnn since very long time ago.

Maybe I am too suspicious .
I've tried to cool down ,

To calm down,

To pardon,

But I can't dampen out the FIRE.
He just hurt me too much.

Does he ever care?
Does he ever consider?
Does he ever empathiz?

NO !!!

I want him to remember what he has done to me time to time.
Sometimes I doubt whether where is his heart locate .

I will REVENGE!!!

And only REVENGE
The FIRE only can be stamped out.

Chris's heart words : for sharing with you~

Do you know?

2009-09-27T19:07:00.000+08:00

On this Monday afternoon, I ask, “Did you know…?”

1. Did you know that sorrow is sweet? When we suffer, there is the opportunity to transcend the suffering and move to a higher level of awareness. Suffering illuminates an area in which we haven’t evolved.

2. Did you know that we’re not bothered by what happens, so much as we are bothered by our opinions of what happens? Nothing is bad or good or indifferent without you judging it as so. And the exciting news is we can change those opinions easily. Choose your opinions wisely, blog buddy!

3. Did you know that the best way to hold on is to let go? I want this on my tombstone.

4. Did you know that if you do what you’ve always done, you’ll get what you’ve always gotten? Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. Step into the unknown if it is change that you seek.

5. Did you know that you’re 1% visible and 99% invisible? Why, then, do we spend so much of our energy and effort on that 1%?

And did you know that if you leave a comment on this post with your own “Did you know…”, I just might send you my lifework kits!? I’ll select a few commentators for the prize. :-)

No Boundaries ~by Kris Allen Nice song indeed

2009-09-27T18:48:00.002+08:00

No Boundaries Lyrics by Kris Allen
Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you’ve lost your way
What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
to fight and never walk away

Coz here I am - still holding on!

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain (or through all your aches and pains)
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can
There are No Boundaries x2

I fought to the end to stand on the edge
What if today is as good it gets
Don’t know where the future’s headed
Nothings gonna bring me down

I’ve jumped every bridge and I’ve run every line
I’ve risked being saved but I always knew why
I always knew why

So here I am still holding on
Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule coz there’s nothing between you
and your dreams

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
Yeah…

There are no boundaries
Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane
There are no boundaries x3

Kris Allen Lyrics - No Boundaries

A newbies

2009-09-27T14:12:00.000+08:00

Hey Hi ~

I m quite new to here ...
I will try as much as i can to enhance my blog .

I hope thr is some pros to guide me and leave some good comments or anything else.

Thx for visitting ~

Chris